time for a change
Do you ever just not feel like writing? I’ve been feeling like that lately. But I’ve not really been wanting to get out of bed either. Or do my hair. Or put makeup on… I’ve just had kind of a blah week.
I need to figure out a way to change my life. Sometimes you feel good for a little while, and you get into the groove of feeling good. Then something happens and you fall down again… I see myself in this situation and I know that I simply cannot find happiness while in this situation.
I have to get out.
And I have to figure out how to do so quickly because I know I wasn’t put on this earth to live an unhappy life. I refuse to believe that. So lately I’ve b een fighting with myself not to cry. Not to complain, and try to direct my thinking into a different direction. Like the folks on the secret said. If you think about only the bad things, then it’s gonna stay that way because that’s the only thing that I’m thinking about. So I have to start thinking positive and change that… and maybe things will change then. If I can’t change anything right now I know that I can change my mindframe and my way of thinking about things. So that’s what I’ll do. Hopefully I’ll be feeling better soon. Because day after day I’m just getting sick and tired of being sad. It’s time to break the cycle. I’m done pouting and complaining. Because I know that there is more to life than just this. And I’m determined so so determined to be happy now.
I deserve it.
It’s weird but I rarely feel like writing. I don’t know why; most writers look forward to it but I have to get myself into the right mood to write. Or blog. I love it but I know just trying to write doesn’t work for me, so I do other things first. If I’m still not in the mood then I leave it for another day… and then a week goes by and I’ve done nothing! That’s when the panic starts.
But I know what you mean… it’s horrible when you feel so down that you don’t care about anything. I guess you just find a way through it and that starts with the small things, the things you can change. That you want to be happier, though, says a lot. So many people just go along with it but we all deserve to be happy and that you want to make the change is great.
I actually think about this a lot myself, whether I’m happy, and sometimes I’d like to be happier… but then I’m not unhappy either, it’s more that they’re emotional extremes for me and most of the time I’m just going about my day. So maybe it’s a balance and some people just keep going through the cycle…
I hope you feel better soon; I’m sure you’ll get there, in time.
Keep reading things that inspire you. Start engaging in activity that makes you happy, i.e. singing. Express those feelings you want back, call a friend, invite them for a cup of coffee or whatever. Only concentrate on what you want and not what you don’t.
I’m really glad that you are ready to move on. You do deserve it and for sure are worth it.
{{Kiss, Kiss}}
Hey Cj, yea i totally get it. I start to feel bad if I don’t blog for a while, but then i get over it and just wait until I’m ready lol.
But thanks for stopping by. Always appreciated!
Thanks sensei that’s good advice. Today I went to eat sushi. I was alone but it didnt bother me since I love sushi. And I didnt’ mind having the me time.
You’re awesome and thankyou for caring and commenting
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